Mum, please don’t read this. I’m ok now.
Before you read you should know there's some kinda heavy stuff in here :)) much love x There's this thing called smiling depression, where both happiness and depression co-exist. But, happiness isn't really the right word. It's a mask: the smiles, the laughing, the "I'm doing great". Behind the mask is a mind in a deep, dark hole of constant sadness. A mind that screams at you how unworthy you are at every chance it gets. It's all around us, in the places you would least expect: Dwayne Johnson, Micheal Phelps, Angelina Jolie. Winston Churchill led his country through World War 2 while battling the disease. When he took the train each day, he had to leave a pillar between the tracks and himself because "a second's action would end everything. A few drops of desperation". In the worst way possible, they were some of the most comforting words I had ever read. I stopped running, the thing I loved the most, because I was too afraid of what ...